I literally stumbled into a keyboard gig that year with Captain Beefheart, which is a whole other story...suffice it to say that I'm still recovering...I'd never actually heard any of his songs, and although I'd heard that he was gonzo weird, I was one bologna sandwich away from the street and didn't care...it was puny dough and the music definitely wasn't for me, but it was a job...after that whole thing lurched to an ignominious halt, I was hanging around a big country music venue out in the Valley, and again literally ran into Roger Miller, a huge star at the time and coincidentally from my hometown...one of my major heroes...I immediately jumped on him and started babbling something about being a piano player, and a singer, and an all around cool guy from his hometown, and I needed a job, weep wop woop, and due to some serendipitous rip in the fabric of the universe got the gig...from Captain Beefheart to Roger Miller...major whiplash...Roger kind of took me under his wing, introducing me to his friends and graciously asking me to play my songs for them, and they started recording them...Waylon, Willie, Glen Campbell, Ray Charles, Cher, a bunch of them...I was in a kind of daze, and such an unregenerate dumb-ass that I didn't even realize or appreciate just how big a deal that was, that guys had spent decades busting their asses trying to get any one of those artists to do just one of their songs, and here they were doing mine by the handful...Glen Campbell cut a whole album of my songs...I was so green that I just took it as a matter of course...the natural order of things so to speak...oh, Ray Charles cut my song?...cool...any beer in the fridge?...I think one of the reasons that it didn't dawn on me fully was because I wasn't really doing anything all that differently than I had been...sleeping all day, getting up and smoking a little reefer, working on a song, and then bird-dogging chicks all night...the only difference was that now I was doing it at Roger Miller's house...I loved that guy, and am truly grateful...I had the unbelievably rare opportunity of being exposed to the very best right off the bat...R.I.P. vato...wherever you are, they're laughing...
I've been signed as an artist to two or three major labels and a couple of smaller ones...every time was a carbon copy of the first...they'd hear me play live somewhere, get all worked up, sign me in this sort of giddy frenzy, and then the instant the ink was dry on the contract start resolutely and inexplicably trying to change the very thing that hooked them to start with...confused and angry, I would resist this in my very bones, eventually leading me to be labeled throughout the industry as difficult...I would be assigned some producer that I didn't know from Adam, we'd butt heads and compromise to a sickening degree, and the end product would reflect it...neither fish nor fowl...the records didn't do well for the most part, and for fair reason in my opinion...I didn't even like them, although conversely the people who did buy them still play them and are die hard fans to this day...I tried to front it off, but secretly it broke my heart every time, and I started losing interest in that whole side of it...I started concentrating mostly on writing, which was my first love anyway, but I never lost and will never lose that burning bone deep desire to make the music I hear in my head 24/7, that lives and has always lived deep in my heart, for better or for worse...right or wrong, I'm in all the way daddy-o...I've also gone on the road playing keyboards for Glen Campbell, Mick Fleetwood and a couple others, but I'm just not a very good sideman I think...it bores me and my ego is too big...
I eventually came to Nashville, a new page so to speak, to what I thought might be greener pastures, but was really just greener horseshit...in fairness though, I must say that I was fortunate enough to have had several major artists record my songs there; Trace Adkins, Lila McCann, Brooks and Dunn, Shenandoah, Kenny Rogers, and Hank Jr. among others, and for that I am very grateful...it was enough to support me and mine, such as it was, but I was truly of a different bent and a bona fide stranger in a strange land...I just couldn't quite get why every song had to have something to do with farm equipment...still don't get it...I did however make a precious few really good friends, truly talented people that I'm tight with today...which brings me to Radigan...
Terry Radigan was a friend the instant we met in Nashville...beautiful, talented, funny, honest, true in her gypsy heart, and ornery...ballsy without being pushy...still don't know how she pulls that one off...my kinda gal...a Brooklynite to the bone, she was also in Nashville for a time, cutting a swath as it were, writing songs for major artists and doing some recording of her own...she eventually went back to New York where she designed and built her magic recording studio...she began calling me and inviting me to come up and record some of my songs with her as producer...I was reluctant at first honestly, because...well...I don't know...I was holed up in Oklahoma at the time, Erick to be exact, trying to help my mother out with my little sister who has health problems, and riding around out in the country drinking cheap tequila and firing pistols...after about a year of of Terry calling, I thought why not?...at least with her it would be fun, sound like the real me for a change, and if it didn't turn out I couldn't bitch and whine about it being somebody else's fault...
I fell instantly in love with Brooklyn...the energy, the people, the streets, the food, the colors, the energy, and most of all the palpable artistic vibe which I realized with a start had been so sorely lacking in my life...we started right away, and I reanimated on the first note...she called in some wicked good and beautifully crazy players that inhabit Terry World, and all too soon we were done with the first phase...that was in October of 2012, and while I was there Hurricane Sandy struck...I've always felt somehow that that was a portent of some kind, an omen, although I couldn't tell you what kind or why...I went back to Oklahoma, and in February of 2013 went back up to do some new vocals, cut another couple of songs, and fix a few things...this is the result...I believe that so far, this is the most fun I've ever had...you rock, Radigan...
I have come to realize at this stage of my life that I really don't give a shit about "things"...never have and never will evidently, and although like W.C. Fields said I've been with money and without it and with it's better, I just don't care...I've driven new fancy doo-dah SUVs and I've driven smoking beaters, and as long as I got there it was pretty much all the same to me...I've spent thousands of dollars on vital necessities like Chinese hand-carved ivory boxes from which to stylishly dispense that evil cocaine to the worthy, and I've dug change out from under the seats for a gas station hot dog...lived in big fancy houses with snooty neighbors and crash landed on friends' couches...I lived in my studio once for two years...I have spent an entire lifetime flying around the room backwards, running at a hundred miles an hour with my hair on fire, and I'm still here...I have tried above all to be true to myself, even in the face of common sense, because I just don't know any other way...I make music the best way I know how, from my heart, and regardless of who else likes it, I have to like it...that's my criteria...what a fool believes, and all that...what else does a man need?...
Micheal Smotherman
Nashville, Tennessee
January 2014